Love is Waiting…

By Brooke Fraser

In the autumn on the ground,
between the traffic and the ordinary sounds
I am thinking signs and seasons while a north wind blows through
I watch as lovers pass me by
Walking stories – whos and hows and whys
Musing lazily on love
Pondering you
I’ll give it time, give it space and be still for a spell
When it’s time to walk that way we wanna walk it well

[CHORUS:]

I’ll be waiting for you baby
I’ll be holding back the darkest night
Love is waiting til we’re ready, til it’s right
Love is waiting

It’s my caution not the cold
there’s no other hand that i would rather hold
the climate changes, I’m singing for the strangers about you
don’t keep time, slow the pace
Honey hold on if you can
the bets are getting surer now that you’re my man

[CHORUS]

[BRIDGE:]
I could write a million songs about the way you say my name
I could live a lifetime with you and then do it all again
and like I can’t force the sun to rise or hasten summer’s start,
neither should I rush my way into your heart.

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Dear You,

Yes you. Do you know that this is my heart’s song for you? Do you know that no matter how much I fight it, your face always breeze in whenever this song is being played in my playlist? Do you know that if only I will be honest to myself, I would really love to sing this song with you? Do you know that I’ve been praying for you and for this feelings? Do you know that I’ve been spending heart-to-heart talks with God, asking him to direct my heart where it should go. I would love to know why just the sight of you could make me excited and delighted.

I would love to know if it’s really you that I’m seeing and not him.

Perhaps, until the time that I would have the answer for the latter will I ever find the courage to just let this feelings flow freely. Until the time that I’m already sure that it’s you that my heart is longing for and not an old love whom you have close likeness with.

Until such time, I will rest my heart’s case unto Him and just let Him orchestrate everything if He so desires.

Until such time, I will be waiting.

Of Reckless Abandonment and Breaking My Alabaster Box

“God is setting you up in a place where you can be used by Him.”

It’s been 8 months now since I did what you may call a “reckless abandonment.”

I left the comforts and the happiness of one school and exchanged it with the present hodge-podge of sacrifices, fulfillment, and happiness of the present school where I am working.

It may seemed like I haven’t moved on yet with the happy memories of the former school because they are still part of my happy thoughts–the people and events I like to think of when I’m feeling down.

I, however, believe that it is with the present school that my faith is being geared up to another level and my maturity towards my career life is being developed.

I’d say the act of leaving the former school to be with this new school is a reckless abandonment on my part since I made a critical decision to turn my back on the little angles I sincerely love and who’d been my babies since I started teaching, and all the comforts of that school–the good pay, the facilities, the security.

Just like what the Bible character Ruth did during her time, she decided to leave her people, her country, and even her gods to follow the Lord wherever He would lead her.

 I broke my alabaster box before Jesus Christ and I received His     assignment for me. I am still in the process, though, of making myself comfortable in this new field that God has called me to plow since there are really a lot of  things I need to forego and difficulties I need to experience for this. But that faith and hope that its is God who has called me to do this and I know that He is the one who’s going to bless me on this is what’s keeping me steadfast on this mission.

As what Pastor Nixon said last Sunday during the preaching, most people do what God calls them to do and go where He leads them, but it’s the STAYING that’s quite challenging. In my experience, it is during the times when I feel inefficient as a teacher, when the school has bills to pay but the parents haven’t paid the monthly tuition yet, when I’m feeling inferior with other preschools in our area–that I feel like staying to this place where God has called me is very difficult. But time and time again every time I feel like giving up,  there is that small voice of God that’s telling me to hold on for better things have yet to come. I just have to believe and hold on to His sovereignty and release all my worries to Him.

Before this opportunity to spearhead a preschool was offered to me, I kept asking God to use me to share His message to other people and spread the Word. Perhaps the very reason why I am in this present school now is because God already answered my prayer. He is now using me.

He is using me to let the little angels in our school get to know who Jesus is and make Him the superhero of their young hearts. That’s one thing I wasn’t able to really completely do when I was with the former school. Since I am now in-charge of the school’s curriculum, I could always integrate the teachings of Jesus Christ in our daily activities and speak more about Him during our circle time:-)

And yes, I am smiling while I am weaving these words together. I know that despite the difficulties I am experiencing with this new school, God is with me and He is never going to forsake me. Just like Ruth, I chose to forsake the familiar and the comfortable because I am believing God’s best for my life. This decision may be costly but I just know that in His appointed time, I am going to reap the good harvest of this decision.

This difficult season will just be another powerful testimony in the future.

*inspired to write because of the book: Lady in Waiting by Debbie Jones and Jackie Kendall and last Sunday’s preaching on the UNLIMITED series at VCF-Malate 🙂 

The Tale of an Empty Bench and of Finding Love

An empty bench.

Same as with every single soul praying for and wishing to find love, this bench sits there day in and day out, hoping to be a witness to a love story like no other. A love story perfectly authored by God.

The lady in waiting.

Then there’s the lady who’s been praying for that special someone to finally come her way. She goes there during her free time. Just thinking about different thoughts on life and love. Observing the people passing her left and right. Holding in her heart that earnest hope that one of those people walking pass through her will take time to look at her and see beyond what could be seen by the naked eye. Someone who will take time to look at what’s inside her heart.

Most of us walk that path of patiently waiting for ‘the one.’. Praying. Waiting. Hoping. Sometimes losing hope. Praying again and regaining that small spark of hope to finally meet that ‘person’ in one of our visits to that place where we spend most of our times wishing that love will finally walk on by, sit with us and stay there forever.

And then he walks on by.

Sits with her….and she finds herself enjoying every bit of moment spent with him. It’s as if spring has finally arrived in her life.

And there’s colors everywhere.

Could he be ‘the one?’

We always find ourselves asking that question over and over again every time we meet someone. The thought of spending the rest of our lives with that person excites us to bits.

Giving our much-coveted ‘YES’ to that person requires a lot of praying and thinking and contemplating. It might seem easy at first especially if you’re having that ‘kilig’ feeling over that guy. But true love goes beyond that ‘kilig’ feeling. Always aim for that ‘love at last sight’ thing more than the ‘love at first sight’ for is speaks of fidelity and loyalty till your last breath.

Most of all, love should be under God’s oversight. It is one thing to feel in love but it is one very important thing to be in love under the blessings of God. It is a much heartwarming feeling. It’s as if happiness has no ending and occasional heartaches are just flowers to keep your garden of love bloom in beauty all the more.

God is the Ultimate Author of the best love stories ever told and He is very much concerned with our love lives more than we do for ourselves. Just a trust in His timing is all He’s asking of us before he could finally let us meet ‘the BEST one’ for us. Seek Him first and let His desires for you overpower your own heart’s desires.

Love is a union of 3.

When you finally get the confirmation from God, that’s the only time that you can say that true love has finally found you. We can find different kind of loving feeling in this world—from that guy who keeps on sending you messages in Facebook, or your officemate who’s being extra sweet and caring to you, or that guy you’ve met in a party; but it is only in pursuing the desire of God in your life that could make you feel truly in love, happy and satisfied.

God is our very own Dr. Love. You need not dial a number and let your voice be heard in the airwaves to understand what you’re feeling. You don’t even need to pay a high price to know who’s the one for you. A simple and sincere quiet time with Him is all you need. Listen closely to what He’s telling you and let His small voice overpower the desires of your heart.

Let God sit in a special place in your relationship. You need not worry about how to keep that love strong and how to make it last forever because God will be the one to make those things possible.

I haven’t found that kind of love yet but I am believing in the kind of love that God has destined for me. I just know that when that time comes, it’ll be the best kind of feeling I could ever feel. And yes, I am excited for that kind of love that only God could bring my way:-)